A married bisexual man

With life going on the memory become more and more blurry. I’m about 40 years old. There are many questions in my mind and confused me. I’m very scare that something would happen in the future. If I’m die suddenly, I cannot speak out the words that in my mind for a long time. I want write down the words about journey of my heart. With other bisexual can learn about something from it.

I had married for 9 years. My child is going to primary school this year. I should be a happiness bisexual man. My parents are teacher. And I finished my study without a hitch. I became a lawyer after graduating from college. I had been a lawyer for 10 years. Even just an assistant. I’m not very rich, nor poor. I give all my income to my wife, and leave a little part for bus. Sometimes I will go hiking and chatting with my friends. I don’t like to go shopping unless it’s necessary. 

Although my material lust just so-so. But my sex lust is very strong. From 14 years old I was masturbation every week. Until I get married, I must have a masturbation two-three days. I bought a computer after I have worked. My most enjoy thing is masturbation while browse pictures about gays and bisexual man. I’m very like the pictures about oral sex of men to men. I never browse those pictures at home because I’m scaring expose my sexual orientation. But I cannot stop to click bisexual site when I’m in the office alone. 

Though there is a regular sex life after marriage, but it still cannot meet all my needs, I will still have a masturbation occasionally. To me, the happiness of masturbation is good than sexual intercourse. 

I love man more than woman. There is a friend asked me whether I dated with a man. I loved one friend for more than ten years. But I never told him, and I was married. I’m identify as gay in the past. But I realized I’m a bisexual. I have ever thought about that I won’t married. I can just look at a man soundlessly at the corner and die alone. Until I meet my wife a very beautiful woman. 

Now I have a very happiness family. I think it’s the carnal desire for man. And my spirit belongs to my wife. So I choose to married. Of course, there are so many choices to any bisexual. Just remember that follow your heart.

You are bisexual or bi-curious.

All bisexual come from bi-curious. It’s a slowly process for people to identify themselves as bisexual. Most of time, they begin the change as bi-curious. When you found that you can attract by both boy&girl, you are a bi-curious. At this time, there are two kind of people in the group. They are bisexual and bi-curious.

Real bisexual will have this feeling more young. Because they attracted by both gender automatic. The feeling is like the call from heart. But for bi-curious, most of them want experience the sex with same gender.

Some people think it’s so cool to be a bisexual. It makes some straight want join threesome date and they did. Love is a fuzzy concept. Just like drink water, only you know it’s cold or hot. Of cause straight can join the date. They will called to bi-curious. Not only straight but also gay&lesbian often join bisexual dating. They have more experience of date with same sex. But they were called bi-curious too.

More and more people join the date make the life exciting. Because of gay, lesbian, straight join the bisexual group. And some of them fake to be bisexual. But as time goes on, there are many problems come out. It makes real bisexual was called into question. E.g. does bisexual exist? Bisexuals are sexually greedy. Bisexuals are cheaters. And so on.

Not every real bisexual have sex experience with both gender. A part of bisexual have the sex predilection. They love girl or boy. So they would choose one of the gender to married. Like normal people.

The most important thing isn’t to be bisexual or bi-curious. It’s who you are and what you really want. It’s ok to fall in love with someone or have fun with different people.      

The famous Gay & Bisexual in history. (Part One.)

We often hear the grumble from some gay and bisexual. Most of the grumble is about that they cannot live normality with the gay and bisexual identify. The courage gradually die out in their hearts. And the inferiority is burning their souls. But do you know that not only you is facing all the dilemmas, but also the celebrities in history were faced the same dilemmas too. Gay and bisexual is not fearful. The words of people is not important. The key is we cannot been overthrow by ourselves. Of cause, we cannot wild wishes that every gay & bisexual can live like Leonardo da Vinci and Foucault. But we cannot live an ignoble life because of our sexual orientation. Our world is very big. The road of gay & bisexual is long with no end in sight. Let’s see that what did the celebrities do in the history?

 

1.      Socrates: The ancient Greek philosopher, The “Symposion” record how is he resolutely safeguard of same-sex relationships in faithfully.

2.       Alexander: One of the greatest military commander in the history of mankind. Express the relationship with Achilles by using the Greek legend of same-sex couples.

3.       Leonardo Da Vinci, Michelangelo: Has a special liking for male models while work performance male beauty. Michelangelo wrote many love poems to his gay lover. But all the name changed to female appellation before publishing.

4.       Baldwin: A famous American writer and civil rights activist. He led the black delegation dialogue with the US government in 60s. But he was sidelined by other civil rights activist due to the gay identify.

5.       Gogol: A famous Russian writer, masterpiece “ghosts”. He accept the priest’s advice, attempted to drive the homosexuality tendency by hunger strike. He die of exhaust finally, just 43 years old.

6.       Whitman: American poet, He expresses same-sex in love poetry anthology “Reed set”. And published in the revised and enlarged edition of “leaves of grass”. Because of the social pressure, he has to change many male name to female name.

7.       Eleanor Roosevelt, American President Franklin Roosevelt’s wife. Maintained a love relationship with the female journalists Luo Lina Mr Kirk for many years.

                                                                                                          To Be Continued…

Do you want show your body to your partner?

What’s your feeling when you open a window in computer there are some nudity picture? (For example a threesome date, two gays are kissing, a man have sex with two bisexual women) Watching the picture and fanatic the image, or close the window fast? Why I ask the question? Different activity shows different attitude when facing the erotica.

More or less we will touch some erotica in the daily life. Some people will be happy to accept it. But most people was shame to face it. Turn away right now or close the movie, picture, TV this is the most common performance. This is a situation we cannot avoid if we live in the world.

So, there is a question. Why the people have different attitude to erotica? I think the social-cultural background account for the largest percentage. We cannot say that witch cultural is more excellent. But we can choose to enjoy our life.

No matter you like the erotica or not. You will sleep and have sex with your partner. No matter you are gay, bisexual, lesbian, straight expect the frigidity people. Just have sex with different way. Are you shame to show your body to your partner. If the answer is yes. I think you should try to change your mind. We know proper shame is good for your chat up. But excessive shyness may take away a lot of fun when you have sex. Have sex is the instinct of a human. We shouldn’t suppress it in a reasonable situation.

Open your mind, open your arms to enjoy the love. Not only you can becomes more confidence, but also can improve your quality of sexual life. Open doesn’t means libertinism. It dependent on who is your partner to have sex.

Many good movies was banned for many years, because of some movie plot have erotica. When it remove the ban years later. We watch it again with newest perspective. And we will find that we can accept the movie very easy. It’s not the director cannot control the erotica plot in the movie. They would rather the movie been banned than delete the erotica pieces. There is only one thing they want to talk to us, it’s they want to break the old notion and encourage people to enjoy the life, and the feeling when have sex with partner.

It’s very hard to change mind right now. It’s a slow process. But you get the new life when the moment you decide to have change.

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